Archive for August 2013
It’s Been A While….Lots To Tell
Posted on: August 31, 2013
So sorry ! I just moved houses and school started and I didn’t have a computer to blog on. But now I have the chance, so I’ll try to fit in as much as I can. Well, school’s been good, well, the classes part of it. Other than that it’s been pretty hectic. D and I have shared our “Hi’s” and “Hola’s” (he tries to be Mexican). But other than that we haven’t really talked, we’ve continued our texting convos though. And there’s another guy that could potentially turn in to a crush. His name is T. My English teacher oh so kindly gave us a seating chart where I sit RIGHT next to him. He’s only a little detail though. The big thing. X and KC. X broke up with KC because she “broke promises”. How do I know why you say ? Well. Me and X are talking again. It started with what I believe was an innocent “Happy Birthday”. But, 6 days later I was proven wrong. Because 6 days later is when he stopped me before I walked into geometry (a class that D,X, and I all share), called my name, and when I turned around, he was holding out a single piece of folded up paper. Naturally, I grabbed the paper and walked into class. Shaken up by what in the hell he could possibly want. So I sat down and got my stuff out and opened the note. It said “Come talk to me if you want to know why. -X” I don’t have the time after school to go converse with my fellow classmates, so I didn’t go talk to him. But, later that day at home, I texted him. Now, I was kinda freaking out. But when he texted back, after a lot of explaining. He explained why he broke up with me. He said that he started liking another girl, a grade above us, who happened to be the choreographer of a musical he was doing. He thought it would “crush” me less if he broke up with me as apposed to me finding out that he liked her from someone. But, after she left, he realized that breaking up with me was stupid and it killed him to do it and he knew I wouldn’t take him back after that had happened. So, he started going out with KC to “cover up what we used to have” and because she reminded him of me. So, I just asked a lot of questions and I’m not sure how I feel about it, and about him. I don’t know if I believe him. It’s nice to know that I was better than KC though. Since I texted him on Tuesday, we’ve had over 500 texts. Just seeing how each other has been and stuff. Yesterday at school he asked me out on a date. He said that his mom would be there and he wanted me to go to the mall with him and just walk around and have dinner. I kinda wanted to go but my mom didn’t want me to. So instead I’m going to the mall with my friend A and J. We’ve talked about us and what happened and what we want to do. We both agreed that we should be friends for now and then see what happens. But I don’t know how much or when I would, if at all want things to happen. I’m still thinking about D. I’m still fantasizing about how we could be together. I don’t know. My friends say they think he likes me but I’m not sure. I just want things to be simple. In English, our homework assignment was to write a poem about fire and/or water. I did both. It’s about X and D, and here it is.
The pain he brought me filled me with a burning hate. The thought of destruction was all I could take. The person he was brought smoke to my thoughts as a volcano burns. The sparks simmered down to ashes. All the while my blood boiled down to nothing. Water came to put out the fire in me. He got the fire out of my head, but brought the serenity into my life. He’s as calm and free as the waves crashing onto the tide. He’s simple but can make tsunamis. I don’t want the fire to go out, but I don’t want the water to evaporate either.
She Called…..
Posted on: August 5, 2013
Yesterday. GG called me. If it were up to me I would’ve ignored it. But as soon as my sister called me to look at the caller ID on the TV and tell me that she also called the house earlier while I was gone, my grandma had already picked up the phone and was calling me to the front room. Great. So I went up to the front room to get the phone. I mean, I haven’t told you guys this, but like 2 days after our fight, she apologized. Said what she said was “Way out of line”. But honestly. I don’t want to be her friend. I told you guys that. Ever since we’ve stopped being friends, things have been easier. I mean, I don’t know what “things” exactly, but….like I don’t know how to explain it. I just, like things have been easier without her. Life was a drag. I mean, she’s said she’ll try to change, but I don’t think she will, and I don’t want to risk it for someone who wasn’t all that good of a friend in the first place. I feel like she’s trying to guilt me into being her friend again. She said that it’s “been the longest 7 days of [her] life”. But it’s not going to work, do I feel guilty ? Only the tiniest bit. But not enough to bring me back. I told her maybe some other time we could be friends again, but honestly, I don’t even know if I want that. Because I know that with me, being the only real friend she’s ever had, she’ll suffocate me and think we’re best friends again. And because K doesn’t like GG, they can’t hang out together. And I don’t want to hang out with her alone. So I’m really stuck right now because I don’t know if she’s gonna call again, or message me again, but I just hope that she stops. I’ve been ignoring her messages but she doesn’t get the point that I DON’T WANT TO BE HER FRIEND.
HELP MEEEEEEEEEE D:
Freshman Orientation ^o^
Posted on: August 2, 2013
ERMERGERD.
So I just got back from my Freshman Orentation. It was pretty dang awesome. I mean, to most of you, you probably think I’m crazy because there was very little interaction between D and I. There was most definetly interaction though. I’m not on any drugs….you can trust me. But I was hanging out with K the entire time and all. I mean no duh I would. But I guess she got tired of my talking about him the whole 4 hours it was. But when it was ending me and K were walking out and I was looking around for him, and lo and behold we hear someone behind us talking about him to someone else and pointed him in the direction of where D went. So, me and my girly crushing instincts told K and we went over there and D saw us and was like “Why don’t we just go out this way ?”. Because the way everyone was going out one door making a crowd of the hot sweaty freshman class. And we made eye contact !! o.o Anyways, there was another door we could go out. But of course K just wants to ruin my love life. K, if you happen to read this, which you probably will sooner or later, THANKS A LOT -.- Lol but if she didn’t let us go that way then maybe we wouldn’t have bumped into him outside of the gym. So then when we got outside I saw him and all and K had to go catch her bus so I went with my gay guy friend to go and wait but then Kiley called me back so then I went to her and she basically pushed me towards D and then she was like “There talk to her !”. I didn’t get to ask her why she did call me. Hmph. I’ll ask later. Anyways so then he was like “Hi ! I’m D____ _______. And ________________________.”. I put blanks for the last part because I was so nervous I would do/say something stupid so I kinda blanked out unfortuantely and didn’t hear what he said ._. But then he stuck his hand out and then we shook hands and all. That was all that happened ._.
BUT I AM NEVER WASHING THIS HAND AGAIN ! :DDDDDDDDD
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Oh yeah. Blog to you later ! 😀
Waking Up To New Friendships
Posted on: August 1, 2013
For the time being, lets pretend these girls are much older than they look. Oh, and that these two girls are me, and KC. Yeah. I want to say that we got into a big argument, but it really wasn’t that big. So. It all started because I posted on Facebook about how I had 7 followers at the time. And this one girl who I’m kinda friends with, asked what it was so she could follow me. I commented the link to it and stuff and all was fine. Except for the fact that she never followed me ._. Not the point. Ummm so I said in my last blog, or a couple of blogs ago I don’t even remember. But I said that I wanted to try to be KC’s friend right ? Yeah, so I sent her a friend request on FB. And she accepted and all. But I guess she saw my post about my blog about her and Douche. So she got mad and stuff and we got into an argument. Blah blah blah long story short, everything was explained, we both apologized and stuff. So we’re friends now. And I’m writing this blog for her. Because she wanted me to fix stuff. The only thing to change though is that Douche is no longer Douche. Although we’ll probably never have to talk about him, in case he happens to come up, we’ll just refer to him as X. But that’s basically all. This blog probably wasn’t too interesting, but it was just to clear things up. So…..blog to you later ! 😀
Bad pasts can be fixed.
Crushes…Again…And My Breakup.
Posted on: August 1, 2013
First of all let me say that I didn’t really know what to title this. Because it’s just kinda all over. Well, I guess since I promised, I have to tell about my one breakup. Not multiple breakups. Just one. Yeah, I’ve only ever had one boyfriend. It’s a bummer but whatever. So anyways, let’s call my ex Douche. So I liked Douche the beginning of the year and all. And blah blah blah I won’t bore you with the long story of how we got together. I mean unless you want me to. Then just comment in that little handy box below c: Anyways, we had almost gone out for 5 months, which I know isn’t a lot, but to me it was. But then he told me he “wasn’t ready for a relationship”. Which was the biggest BS lie I’ve ever heard in my 13 (almost 14) years of life. Wanna know why ? Yeah….cuz uh….like 2 weeks later, he got a girlfriend. And this girlfriend was the new girl in school, we’ll call her KC, if she happens to come up in the future. And me and a group of my friends KINDLY took her in and saved her from the wrath of the mean popular 8th graders that tried to take her. Some people are probably thinking we were crazy for taking away any chance of being popular. But trust me. We saved her. BIG TIME. And she repays us by going out with MY EX BOYFRIEND. Yeah ok we aren’t friends anymore. I mean, I’m kinda starting to think that I should at least TRY to be her friend. Because when I was still going out with Douche, I was trying to be friends with his ex, we’ll call her S. I mean, we’re really good friends now and all, but it’s hypocritical of me to not be KC’s friend when I didn’t see why S wouldn’t be mine. Anyways, that’s my lame breakup story. And that picture way up there is just a translation to help you understand what they REALLY mean. Now, onto the fun part.
CRUSHES ! ;D
So. I’m sure every single one of us has had a crush sometime in our lifespan. They bring so much joy into our lives don’t they ! I see them like drugs. You think they bring you joy for a period of time but then the side effects kick in and life sucks. I figure that’s why there called crushes. THEY CRUSH YOU. Cheesy huh ? I try. I don’t see how anyone could NOT have a crush. Like I said they’re a drug we’re all addicted to. My crush is like, beyond perfection. D. I mentioned him a couple of blogs ago. His hair is like, PERFECT. It’s kinda sorta curly but it’s like only really curly on the ends of his hair. And he has the cutest cheesiest smile c: And I’m pretty sure he’s Mexican judging from his last name but he cannot act Mexican. Ok that was kinda confusing. Umm…like he says Hola but it sounds totally white when he does it. But it’s cute c: And he over uses the smiley face 😀 But again it’s just cute. I’ve actually never had a conversation with him in real life :c It’s sad. I know. But I’ve been texting him and stuff but he takes forever and a half to text back. So we don’t get through much before he has to go to bed. But when I went on this school sponsored trip to California, we went to the beach and along with other guys, HE BURIED ME IN THE SAND ! 😀 He didn’t even know me then And I don’t know how known I am to him now, if at all. But it meant nothing :c I barely started liking him then. K, my best friend, is his cousin. I mean I already told you that. But she thinks that I’m his type. I don’t even know what my type is ._. I guess I kinda like nerdy guys. Cute, funny, Idk. Smart. A one-way ticket to popularity would be nice, but that would never happen. So. My beloved followers that I oh-so appreciate. Well first of all, thanks for following my blog ! I’m thankful to have you guys. But please comment ! Tell me about your crush. But most of you guys are probably married :b Lol idk but tell me something ! Give me ideas for my next blog. What can I do to make my blog better ? And please, if possible, show my blog to your friends or other bloggers or ANYONE ! So….blog to you later c:
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